Monday, March 15, 2010

I have a lot of flaws.
It's not something I am proud of, and I do try to work on them.
But, I'm not perfect and I fail at things often. I accept that and strive to do better. most days.

One of the hardest things I have controlling though is spitefulness.
When I want to be, I am a downright mean and hateful person who relishes in saying and doing things that I know will hurt you. In that moment I want you to hurt deeply and I want you to hate me for it.

I don't know why this is. I do make an attempt to control my tounge but it doesn't always work. And it makes me feel good when you get what I feel is the appropriate punishment.

Take today as an example. I learned that some previous co-workers/employers could possiably be leaving and I wanted to BURST at the seams with joy. I despise them to my core and I couldn't be happier that they might get the boot. I hope it hurts them, but it will be beneficail to the people that had to deal with them on a daily basis to see them go.  I don't know how some people will be able to control themselves when that big day comes or if they'll be able to get them out the door fast enough.
Hopefully they will get to have a little bit of public humiliation set upon them- like being "escorted off the premises" which is "protocol". ugh.

Maybe tomorrow I will be a better person.
on second thought, maybe not?


heather said...

which coworkers??? i mgiht feel the same way about them...

dana said...

you can't mention anything but I hear that Bill Brunson is leaving and Stacy M. will be doing afternoons in May & then doing student-teaching in Aug. Don't know if it's true but, if it is then SEEEE YA!

heather said...

it would be great if bill was gone.. it is his fault everything went on in the first place.. and stacy?? i didnt know you didnt like her but as we both know i wasnt on that side of the hall so i dont ever know whats going on past the step up... i was just glad jojo left.. i had just wished it had happened when i was

dana said...

I wish that bill was gone- and I wish it would have happened sooner. He is a real dick and when he goes he needs to take his minions with him. He made a lot of unnecessary crap happen at that daycare all because he wanted to "flex his authority".. ugh.

and as far as Stacy goes. I never really had a problem with her, but she was never the top of my list either. She's one of those people you just "tolerate" if you know what I mean. Her whining and "woe is me" card really got on my nerves. Then one day she came in screaming at me in the middle of my class- and from that point on I couldn't care less if she was sitting next to me on fire. I have nothing for her and would like to see her walk right out the door with Bill.

As far as Jolynne goes- well I know what you mean. She was a real pain in the butt HOWEVER her kids were 110% prepared for kindergarten by the time they left her room. So, you have to give her props on that. and to be honest, I was happier to see Rachel leave- I don't know if you knew her though..

I'm glad to be out of that place, and I'm sorry that it has fallen apart so much. But, I really feel that they will benefit from these people leaving. I hate to know that the good teachers, parents and kids are suffering- maybe things will pick back up IF those two, and maybe a few more, leave for good.